Two years ago today Jon messaged me for the first time. A friend made the connection and I decided I was open to meeting him. He was a big guy. Cute. I told her to give him my number. We connected right away, even just over text messages. At the time I was preparing for a powerlifting competition so I spent hours at the gym. The friend told me he lifted. Jon later asked me questions about what I did at the gym and I realized pretty quickly that he did not lift. It was a spectacularly bad lie. I'd joke about it later. "I don't know why she told you that!" he told me, embarrassed. In truth, Jon hated the gym. He would come with me only occasionally. Sometimes he'd have a soda with him. He'd leave to smoke a cigarette or buy candy at Five Below. Eat at McDonald's. Do you even lift, bro? Maybe if you paid him... It's weird. I think about Jon constantly but I almost forgot about today's significance. Jon would be disappointed. But then, I'm forever disappointed that he's no longer here. #asongforjon #mentalhealth #depression #suicideprevention #love #relationships #grief #grieving #loss #survivor #musicproject #playlist #spotify #callmemaybe #carlyraejepsen

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